you suck so baddd!!!!! man i think they might block LJ. oh woe is me.
man i keep hearing people talking about college and where they're going and how they got accepted and...i'm going to a five week course at the mount so i can actually afford college one day. yeah student loan shmudent loan, i just think i would be really really hard to try to support myself and go to a two year college at the moment, so it can wait. i'm just not as excited because i know what its like to have to pay the damn bills and only live on ramen noodles and spaghetti! believe me, it sucks.
i also know that most friendships don't last after highschool, people go their seperate ways and all that jazz, but its already starting to happen to me. my mom said i'm practically married. she's right. my "friends" only want to come over when its convinent for them or they can get my boyfriend to buy booze for them. i mean christ this weekend some kids came over who didn't even know me that well and they stayed at my house until 1:30 in the morning because they were fucked up on pills and had no where else to go. what do you think?! my house isn't some safe haven for fucking drug addicts. i'm sick of being walked all over.
but life is what it is and i'll have to deal with it for another...oh...3 months.
c'mon three months!
this is a really good read, haven't finished it yet but the first couple of chapters are just great! :) i should be writing my memoir right now...but screw the memoir! actually no...i have to finish a bunch of my work. i'ma gonna try not to skip anymore days. its getting a wee bit stressful but...i work better at the last second. my Moms birthday is coming up...i have to keep reminding myself. its on the 31st. hopefully everyone else remembers too. her wrath is horrible. man i can't wait for the weekend, i need to be completely anesthetized. thankfully i can drink at least once a week. if not i would be unbelieveably stressed.
ugh its only tuesday and these days have been going by so slow :(
i've made my final desicion...this will be my next tattooo!!! :) on my thigh. its gonna be super sweet!
man vox stopped working at my school for the longest time. now its back! :D so...whats new with me....well i wrote this in my LJ and its gonna be cross posted to a bunch of other sites but, Kristen is leaving!!! yeeeaaahh!!! wooohaaa!@!!!! woot.
man i just can't wait for her to leave. i don't even care about her anymore. she's just getting on my nerves now. i'm never going to do the roommate thing again. its not worth the fighting and the suffering and the stupidness. never agaiiiin!
it'll be good for me and tim to have our very own place. that what we should have done before but...hey hindsight it just one of those things. we'll i'm off.
peace
<3
i get to see this dazzling beauty tonight :D
hurray for me!
^_^
alrighty! so...4 more days until regina spektor!!! and 8 more days until i get my tattoo!!!
i'm really excited :) and me and tim got a kitten! actually....i got a kitten and suprised tim with it sparking a fight...but! i ended up keeping my kitty! ^_^ she's so cute! her name is mary...mary jane! haha i thought that would be a cute name to go with gonja the snake! i'll post pictures sometime cuz she's so freakin' cute!
i really hope i can get my car back soon....i brought it to the shop on friday and...its the friday after and i still haven't heard anything from them! i wanna driiiiive! that way i can drive to school! which i need because i've been late twice in a row thanks to my ride, i really don't care but...you know, i'm kinda screwed if i get to many tardy slips because my parents wont sign things!
and i just started playing word of warcraft! its so freakin' fun! seriously....i know it sounds dorky and i used to make fun of kristen all the time for playing it but, its amazing! try it. seriously. so. fun.
but yeah thats all i can write for now! i'm off to learn!
and i haven't updated much because i've been playing WoW everyday! :D heheheee
<3
i love this picture...so cute.
anywhoo! kristen went away for a while and to be completely honest, although our apartment was a complete pigsty! it was really nice just being me and tim. everything gets so messy because i have no time to clean on top of work, school, homework, and sex!
just kidding :D
but hopefully kristen got that job because....supporting someone...even for just one week! is kinda rough, on top of car insurance, grocerys, stupid little things that we neglect to get untill we really need them, clothing...which i still don't have! >:(, and other such things. i'm not trying to put her down or say i don't like her living with us...its just...hard! i took a lot upon me when i said she could stay with us. i'm constantly fearing scandalous things happening with her and my apple of my eye. i don't know. i've been cheated on before and most of you know what happend between the three of us. so yes i am rather annoyed and scared and worried about leaving them alone together and i know tim wouldn't do anything but i still have fears. thats normal though isn't it?!
christ i feel like i should have just settled me and tim down first, then did this...it just stressful. and on top of that me and my mom fight everytime i see her and it just never really turns out good....aside from last time but thats a blog for another day.
my car is in the shop and it will be on the road by monday so...lets party.
my new tattoo!!! well...actually its the one i'm getting in a couple a' weeks! i could probably get it sooner but..you know, work.
so kristen moved in with us! we need another key cause me and her kinda fought a little bit yesterday about it...i mean c'mon, if i'm paying the rent i should have a key shouldn't i?! she just got in and we're fighting about it. so whatever...girls will be girls.
camping this weekend!
i'm looking forward to it so much! i can't wait to get out of these horrible towns! tubing is amazing! especially when you have alchohal involved. well i must be off to my learning!
we'll have internet, cable, and a phone line on tuesday! i'll post the number...just privately for those who want to know!
:D
is over....and school is finally started!
me and tim moved into our apartment this weekend and its loverly!
we're surviving off of fruity pebbles and spagetti though...gotta go shopping.
agh. so guess what happened to me the other day? wellla wella, i was holding me and tims precious snake gonja and just the day before i had put him around my neck so he could warm up. he really is a good snake, i love him.
but of course he has to go and break my trust and take a bite at my neck! he got me good, i have some nice bruises and pin holes to show for it. it feels like it never happened though...since i didn't see it happen...he went for the collar bone. but i'll forgive ya gonjie! i just won't be putting him around my neck untill i know he's been fed.
i work at a dunkin' doughnuts now...which isn't too too bad. i mean...its work, so thats all that matters! right? i actually made a pretty decent check last week so its enough to pay the rent and get me my num nums. oh...and keep my car running. but working at a franchise has taugh me something, people are complete and total assholes! especially to complete and total strangers! its unbelieveable. but getting a 213 dollar check kinda makes up for it.
and i working with tyler hakkinen, chelsea smith, garrett jones, and andy! (he's so cute...and gay!) i love the crew!
well since i'm in school right now i ought to be going.
time for hammering!
i left! i'm living with carol now...until me and tim get an apartment. it was rough....really rough. but now i'm a legal adult and i'm on my own!...sort of....
i need a big guy to come with me to my house today...i need to get the rest of my personal belongings, so they don't get smashed....including my car :(
i need to get him today!
thats all
ok...so i'll just copy what i wrote on DA...
so things were going good with my mum for a while...she hasn't taken tim away. but now she's threatening me...she says shes going to take him away from me, she said i'll end up like my friends, living off the government. she said i won't make it anywhere in life. that tim is ruining things for me, that i don't have a life aside from tim.
she said i would work at walmart or mcdonalds for my hole life....(which i've never worked at either...)
so i figure...i'll go to mexico because people are PAYING for me to go and i want to spend time with annie. but after that i'm leaving. i'm moving out!
power to the people!
things will be hard but i'll have 2 months of full time work (hopefully) during the summer, and i'll be part time during school. but i'll work as much as possible.
sorry i didn't feel like typing it again...too lazy.
john lennons words speak to me so! bagh i'm tired...
wish me luck...
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